Today i feel better i think, now at work and trying my very best not to think about whoelse the "LOSER's". Yesterday it hit me when i saw the pictures of them both, and it really hurt me to see how he could be so happy with her instead me feeling shit and fucking misreable. He lie and lie, that's him! Cant believe it happen to me actually. I know i have to move on, and its a waste for me to think about him. Well what can you say if it's your first so called "LOVE". I didnt know that i can be this weak. But compare to before i think i was weaker than this, thanks to my closes frens..u know who u are and my family who never give up on me. I actually dont understand why the ending sucks! i know from some of our teori ending of true loves is always hurt. To let go is hard, and to forget never. God know's how much i love him and i know i shouldn't feel this way after all the shitz and lies he put me thru. It so hurt to know that he actually with "HER"...but yet still calls me and say those "LOVE U" thingy...what daff??
For him its easy to erase me from all the memory that we had for almost 4 years. Make me feel that im special to him than the rest of the girls but actually i am just one of them. Till today i cannot face the fact that this is happening to me, sometimes i wish i could turn back time and be happy like we used to. Sometimes i wish all the mistake that i did, didnt happen at all. Because of one mistake that i did he decide to revenge more painfull than u ever could imagine. I cant understand how can a person be so cruel to act that way to the person that they claim they love.
I tried my very best to be what he want me to. Stopping me to be with my frens, and stopping me from doing the things that i like to do for fun which i think not that "bad". I just love to go out and party like a normal human being at my age living in a city..what so bad doing that? u tell me! I dont understand by the end of the day i get all the blame for not treating him nice or maybe, put it this way for not being what he want me to be. He always said "u want me to be somebody else that is not me, u have to love me for who i am" guess what?that is referring to you not me! You are changing to a person that i dont even know, since you with this so called "i dont love this girl". You never, in your state of mind ever think for second what goods that i have bring in us. I dont ask you to change but to think as an adult and as a proper human being. Dont take it as "well, im a fucked up person so i am like this for the rest of my life"well that is really fucked!
He always tell me to accept who he is, the thing is if i cant accept who he is why the fuck i wanna waste every single of my time being with him? have that occured to him?
Is it wrong for me, a normal gurlfren to be angry at times when he just off the limit? If i just sit and smile at all the "sakai" shit he's been doing what's the point of me being his gurlfren. He can said it straight to my face if he does not like whatever i do or say but its wrong for me to act that way to him. Is just not fair!!!
Well to put it this way MR and your little missy, this is not the end. Im not gonna revenge or do something stupid becoz that will show that my mentality is as low as both of you but what comes around goes around..by that time i just pray to god to have mercy on ya'll.
You can end it nice and peace but you choose to end it like this.
You Ungrateful Bastard, runaway boy..u can runaway as far as you can..because the more u runaway or lie the worst shit gonna happen to your life and mark my word.
And to you BITCH, dont you think you win anything in this stupid games of yours. You just taking my leftovers. You proudly shout "I GOT HIM! I WIN" but actually ur not. What makes you think he will be loyal to you after what happen to me? you think u special too? u living in dream girl And let me tell u this, been there done that! so i dont missed out anything, i am the one who should be angry not u.
PEACE!
For him its easy to erase me from all the memory that we had for almost 4 years. Make me feel that im special to him than the rest of the girls but actually i am just one of them. Till today i cannot face the fact that this is happening to me, sometimes i wish i could turn back time and be happy like we used to. Sometimes i wish all the mistake that i did, didnt happen at all. Because of one mistake that i did he decide to revenge more painfull than u ever could imagine. I cant understand how can a person be so cruel to act that way to the person that they claim they love.
I tried my very best to be what he want me to. Stopping me to be with my frens, and stopping me from doing the things that i like to do for fun which i think not that "bad". I just love to go out and party like a normal human being at my age living in a city..what so bad doing that? u tell me! I dont understand by the end of the day i get all the blame for not treating him nice or maybe, put it this way for not being what he want me to be. He always said "u want me to be somebody else that is not me, u have to love me for who i am" guess what?that is referring to you not me! You are changing to a person that i dont even know, since you with this so called "i dont love this girl". You never, in your state of mind ever think for second what goods that i have bring in us. I dont ask you to change but to think as an adult and as a proper human being. Dont take it as "well, im a fucked up person so i am like this for the rest of my life"well that is really fucked!
He always tell me to accept who he is, the thing is if i cant accept who he is why the fuck i wanna waste every single of my time being with him? have that occured to him?
Is it wrong for me, a normal gurlfren to be angry at times when he just off the limit? If i just sit and smile at all the "sakai" shit he's been doing what's the point of me being his gurlfren. He can said it straight to my face if he does not like whatever i do or say but its wrong for me to act that way to him. Is just not fair!!!
Well to put it this way MR and your little missy, this is not the end. Im not gonna revenge or do something stupid becoz that will show that my mentality is as low as both of you but what comes around goes around..by that time i just pray to god to have mercy on ya'll.
You can end it nice and peace but you choose to end it like this.
You Ungrateful Bastard, runaway boy..u can runaway as far as you can..because the more u runaway or lie the worst shit gonna happen to your life and mark my word.
And to you BITCH, dont you think you win anything in this stupid games of yours. You just taking my leftovers. You proudly shout "I GOT HIM! I WIN" but actually ur not. What makes you think he will be loyal to you after what happen to me? you think u special too? u living in dream girl And let me tell u this, been there done that! so i dont missed out anything, i am the one who should be angry not u.
PEACE!
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